Nine Peaks Two Valleys

We all grew up differently and come from different environments and backgrounds- the way we perceive and interpret life events and situations will be based off our upbringing and beliefs.

At some point, I had it pretty rough. I could write books about abuse, abandonment, narcissistic behavior, and trauma based off my life experience alone.

This thought process around my past stayed with me for years, and there came a point that I genuinely just wanted to get better.

Instead of pounding my head and shouting about my pain, and rather than sending myself into a deep, downward spiral – I took steps towards learning and understanding WHY I felt that way and WHAT COULD BE DONE to shift the way my brain processed everything.

I got tired of blaming others.

I got tired of explaining my depression

& I got tired of living with it.

So, I dove into podcasts and self-development books. I learned about neuroplasticity and my attachment style. I listened to my needs and made space for myself.

I moved on from people who didn’t recognize my worth. I sat with my thoughts and when I needed love, I learned how to love myself with grace. I made a lot of changes in my life. It took time, tears, effort, and consistency to get me to where I am today.

& I had to be the one to do the work; no one could’ve pulled my hand through it, it had to come from ME.

To the ones who let me figure it out, while never leaving my side- thank you for sticking by me. Thank you for not giving up on me, and for not letting me give up on myself.

You mean more to me than you’ll ever know,

I talk less about mental illness nowadays, but my feelings around the topic still holds strong.

To anyone struggling,

You aren’t weak and you aren’t weak minded – you just need the right tools to get you started towards a healthier mindset.

May 6, 2022 – Telissa